Today I made my neurologist appointment! Now that’s the next step. I’m not going til October because we are going on vacation next week and will be gone for a week and a half. BUT I already feel relieved that maybe there is something that they can do. I also plan on making an appointment with a new reproductive endocrinologist for next month. I’m faced with a lot of decisions.. and even MORE Drs but I have to believe something good will come from it.
I go back to my PCP this Thursday to find out if she would like to send me to a Pain Management Specialist. So far with the Vicodin and Elavil I’ve had a pretty good response but hormonally I have been all over the place. Mood Swings. Hot Flashes. Night Sweats. Abdominal & Back Pain. & more. Due to the Lupron I’ve only had one menstrual cycle in the past 5 months… but that’s the idea of Lupron – no estrogen, no menstrual cycle, no endo growth, no pain. If only it worked that way. I still have pain, intermittent menstrual cycles… and now I play the waiting game on when my cycle will start again… for all I know it could never be normal again. -Causing more problems.
Hmm.. Hysterectomy sounds even better. I already have the majority of menopausal side effects anyways… but atleast with the hysterectomy -No up and down hormones, chemically induced & I no longer would need to wonder, am I pregnant this month? “Stupid Bitch of course you’re NOT LOL!”
Decisions, Decisions. Ready to close this chapter. Everyday is a day closer. Is it too much to ask for my life back?