I’m Just A Science Experiment

UPDATE: After seeing the neurologist today… I have to get an EMG test done. Poke me with needles and stimulate my nerves to find out what is wrong with my right side. He did note my right leg is definitely weaker than my left. He also upped my Elavil. So I see a: Reproductive Endocrinologist/OBGYN, Neurologist, Gastroenterologist, and Nurse Practitioner (My PCP). That’s ALOT of specialists/Drs. I feel broken and I’m just their guinea pig.

Unfortunately I can’t get in for the EMG until beginning of November, then have to schedule another appointment to get the results and I’m waiting for a call back to find out when my colonoscopy will be. I just really hope my hysterectomy doesn’t get pushed too far out because of all this. My RE was shooting for mid November but I don’t know. A little overwhelmed…

Now just trying to relax because I’m in a good amount of pain right now. Heating pad, Couch and Vicodin you will be my friends today!!!

xoxo

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The next step

Today I made my neurologist appointment! Now that’s the next step. I’m not going til October because we are going on vacation next week and will be gone for a week and a half. BUT I already feel relieved that maybe there is something that they can do. I also plan on making an appointment with a new reproductive endocrinologist for next month. I’m faced with a lot of decisions.. and even MORE Drs but I have to believe something good will come from it.

I go back to my PCP this Thursday to find out if she would like to send me to a Pain Management Specialist. So far with the Vicodin and Elavil I’ve had a pretty good response but hormonally I have been all over the place. Mood Swings. Hot Flashes. Night Sweats. Abdominal & Back Pain. & more. Due to the Lupron I’ve only had one menstrual cycle in the past 5 months… but that’s the idea of Lupron – no estrogen, no menstrual cycle, no endo growth, no pain. If only it worked that way. I still have pain, intermittent menstrual cycles… and now I play the waiting game on when my cycle will start again… for all I know it could never be normal again. -Causing more problems.

Hmm.. Hysterectomy sounds even better. I already have the majority of menopausal side effects anyways… but atleast with the hysterectomy -No up and down hormones, chemically induced & I no longer would need to wonder, am I pregnant this month? “Stupid Bitch of course you’re NOT LOL!”

Decisions, Decisions. Ready to close this chapter. Everyday is a day closer. Is it too much to ask for my life back?

xoxo