So Here We Are

I’m officially on VACATION! I have waited 7 months for this since we¬†first booked our cruise. We don’t actually fly out to Miami until Friday!! But I’m headed to my moms on Thursday since we’re catching the plane from there. I’m so excited. First time on MSC Cruiseline. I think regardless of the reviews we will have an extremely great time!! Plus we have that BALCONY SUITE that makes things all the better!! ūüėČ

Now I have to do all my last minute things.. of course I’ve been packed for a week

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¬†Happy to be packed but gotta clean the house. My best friend will house/animal sit for us so I don’t have to worry about anything!! That I am thankful for. Well, talk soon, I have to get ready for MSC DIVINA¬† -Miami, Fl¬† -St. Maarten¬† -San Juan, Puerto Rico -Bahamas!

xoxo

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The next step

Today I made my neurologist¬†appointment! Now that’s the next step. I’m not going til October because we are going on vacation next week and will be gone for a week and a half. BUT I already feel relieved that maybe there is something that they can do. I also plan on making an appointment with a new reproductive endocrinologist for next month. I’m faced with a lot of decisions.. and even MORE Drs but I have to believe something good will come from it.

I go back to my PCP this Thursday to find out if she would like to send me to a Pain Management Specialist. So far with the Vicodin and Elavil I’ve had a pretty good response but hormonally I have been all over the place. Mood Swings. Hot Flashes. Night Sweats. Abdominal & Back¬†Pain. & more. Due to the Lupron I’ve only had one menstrual cycle in the past 5 months… but that’s the idea of Lupron – no estrogen, no menstrual cycle, no endo growth, no pain. If only it worked that way. I still have pain, intermittent menstrual cycles… and now I play the waiting game on when my cycle will start again… for all I know it could never be normal again. -Causing more problems.

Hmm.. Hysterectomy sounds even better. I¬†already have¬†the majority of¬†menopausal side effects anyways… but atleast with the hysterectomy -No up and down hormones, chemically induced & I¬†no longer would need to wonder, am I¬†pregnant this month? “Stupid Bitch of course you’re NOT LOL!”

Decisions, Decisions. Ready to close this chapter. Everyday is a day closer. Is it too much to ask for my life back?

xoxo