I found my purpose!

Well I completed my first week at my new job! I must say its a lot to learn (shipping/receiving). But I feel so good about it. From the minute I was referred for this job, to the interview, to now working there, I have had nothing but good vibes! I have finally found my purpose, my meaning. It is so great to be in an office and working with 10-20 people a day versus 1,000 (retail)! What’s also nice is I can relate a lot with the woman training me since she has gone through ivf and failed fertility treatments as well as marriage trouble. I feel for her greatly! But it is nice to be able to talk to someone and have them understand exactly what I’m going thru and vice versa. It is so hard for people to understand what you’re going thru and it feels like it’s just you in this big old world feeling this way… So when you start to meet people that are just like you, it’s a relief. 

I feel like my life is damn near complete right now. Good job, great husband, and financially digging ourselves out. It’s good to feel good. 

My poem of Change

I drive around these old dusty roads
Pitch black with only the light of the moon
My mind is somewhere off in space
How did I even make it home tonight?

Every twist and every turn
Is burned into my memory
As the music plays
I relive the past.

I remember the first time, the first time
I drove down this old road
Now all I want
Is to just pick up and leave
Why can’t it be that easy?

A black night
A blue day
Around here
It’s all the same.

Listening to the music as it plays
Although it reflects
Many darker days,
I find truth in it
In so many ways.

“Through the eye
Of the storm
You are never alone
Even through, the shadows
You are never alone”

I’m so close
To the eye of my storm
Down these old back roads
Just to mourn.

My loss,
My strength
The lesson,
The gain
As I seek change
I will always
Grow through the pain.

(Lyrics by Killswitch Engage)
Poem by yours truly.
xoxo

Pittsburgh

Friday, I decided it was time to color the hair red-again.

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Then I was on my way to Pittsburgh for a weekend away to see my family. It was so nice to just be AWAY from my area for awhile. We decided to make Pittsburgh Steelers Wreaths. Although it sounds easy, it took us a total of 5 hours (cutting fabric and putting them together)!! But it was great spending time with my Mom, Grandparents, Aunt, and my Husband.

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It was also nice to talk about our upcoming cruise!! Only 15 days til my vacation time starts!! I guess I should probably start packing! My Mom, Aunt and I went shopping and got a lot of really nice clothes for the cruise. 🙂 We are all looking forward to the MSC DIVINA.

The Countdown begins…. and so much to do!! 😀

xoxo

Listen to the birds

My enjoyment is sitting in a quiet house, tv off, door open, and just listening. I like to take a step back from the world and just relax.

Two of my cats are running through the house playing with each other while my little 4lb Yorkie is chasing them back and forth, jumping up and down, hoping they will play with her too. The other two cats are quietly standing up at the screen door focused in on the birds outside, eating from the feeder while the squirrel is rummaging on the ground for the left overs. The lovely birds, including my male and female cardinal that pay me a visit every day, are singing away as if they have a large audience. But the sound of it all is what it is all about. Peace. Relaxation.

Just listening to the birds brings a sense of relief that there is something to be happy about. Nature is a beautiful thing and the animals make it all that more special. I may not be able to have children but I get to wake up every day of my life with animals greeting me from my bed to my front door. I love that every morning I get the opportunity to wake up and listen to the birds sing their pretty tunes. Just appreciating the small stuff can really make you that much happier!

xoxo